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Un indice visuel est toujours utile

« La sexualité est fluide, et là mon vagin aussi. »
#FeministFestival #SextLikeAFeminist

Cette page vous fournira des idées pour financer votre participation au 14ème Forum de l’AWID.

En planifiant l’activité que vous voulez présenter au Forum, pensez aussi à la façon dont vous financerez votre participation. Prenez en compte : l’hébergement, le voyage, le visa, les frais d’inscription au forum, etc. 

Veuillez noter que ce Forum offrira de nombreux « espaces ouverts » et moments d’apprentissage et d’échange entre mouvements, mais aussi moins de sessions formelles. (Consultez la section « Comment décrire le Forum pour votre levée de fonds » ci-dessous concernant le langage à adopter dans votre demande). 

Travaillez avec vos bailleurs actuels :

Votre meilleure option sera toujours de faire appel à vos bailleurs de fonds actuels : Si votre groupe bénéficie de l'appui d'organismes donateurs, dites-leur que vous souhaitez participer au Forum de l’AWID pour apprendre, expérimenter, échanger et travailler en réseau, et ce même si votre activité n'est pas sélectionnée dans le programme final.

Pour  soutenir votre participation, vos bailleurs de fonds devront en être informés longtemps à l'avance, alors n’attendez pas pour leur en parler déjà tout de suite ! (Ils sont déjà en train de décider des fonds qu’ils vont distribuer en 2020. Nous vous recommandons de les contacter au plus tard début 2020.) Bon nombre de donateurs qui soutiennent les organisations féministes disposent de budgets alloués au déplacement pour le Forum.

D’autres pourraient les inclure dans des renouvellements de subventions ou dans d’autres financements permettant de couvrir les frais de déplacements. 

Trouver de nouveaux donateurs :

Si vous ne disposez pas actuellement d’un soutien financier, ou que vous ne pouvez garantir de subventions dédiées au déplacement pour le Forum, vous pouvez envisager de contacter de nouveaux donateurs.

• Trouvez des idées de donateurs spécifiques sur le portail de l’AWID « Qui peut financer ma mobilisation pour les droits des femmes ? »
• Pensez à contacter des fonds féministes et pour les femmes au niveau national, régional ou mondial (lien en anglais)
• Explorez les réseaux de donateurs, comme Candid et le Centre Européen des Fondations (EFC) (liens en anglais), pour obtenir une liste de donateurs et d’opportunités dans votre région

Les délais et exigences varient d’un donateur à l’autre, et la procédure d’octroi de financement peut prendre plusieurs mois. Si vous envisagez d’effectuer de nouvelles demandes de financement, nous vous encourageons à le faire au plus tôt.

Inspirations créatives :

Les mouvements féministes ont depuis longtemps fait preuve de créativité lorsque s’agissait de financer leur propre militantisme. Voici quelques idées que nous avons été en mesure de rassembler afin d’inspirer des modes alternatifs de financement.  

• Mobilisez votre communauté pour soutenir la participation : réalisez des levées de fonds grâce à de légères contributions de membres à travers des dîners et des soirées dansantes communautaires, ainsi que des spectacles, des évènements et des excursions au niveau local.
• Mobilisez votre réseau en organisant des cercles de donateurs·trices et du crowdsourcing (appel au grand public) via une variété d’outils en ligne comme gofundme, indiegogo, plumfund ou kickstarter (liens en anglais).
• Développez des sources locales de revenus, y compris les dons individuels et les cotisations de membres.
• Envisagez le cofinancement et initiez des partenariats stratégiques avec d’autres communautés et groupes œuvrant pour la justice sociale.    

Pour plus d’inspiration, vous pouvez consulter les informations continues de l’AWID sur le financement autonome, comprenant des idées spécifiques sur le financement de la participation aux conférences. 

Fonds d’accès :

Le Fonds d’accès de l’AWID : l’AWID s'efforce de faire du Forum un véritable rassemblement mondial avec la participation de divers mouvements, régions et générations. A cette fin, l'AWID mobilise des ressources pour constituer un Fonds d'accès limité (AF, selon son sigle anglais) afin d'aider les participant-e-s  à couvrir leurs frais de participation. 

Vous pouvez indiquer dans votre candidature si vous souhaitez soumettre une demande de financement au Fonds d'accès de l’AWID.

N'oubliez pas que ces ressources sont très limitées et que nous ne serons pas en mesure de soutenir tou.te.s les candidat.e.s. Même si vous faites une demande pour le Fonds d'accès de l’AWID, nous vous encourageons à continuer à explorer d'autres options pour financer votre participation au Forum.  Les décisions relatives au Fonds d'accès seront confirmées d'ici la fin du mois de juin 2020. 

Comment décrire le Forum pour votre levée de fonds : 

Voici quelques extraits de messages qui peuvent vous aider à prendre contact avec vos donateurs ou votre réseau. N’hésitez pas à les adapter de la façon que vous jugerez la plus utile à vos yeux !

Le Forum de l’AWID est un espace cocréé par des mouvements féministes qui stimule les participant·e·s dans leur propre activisme, et renforce les connexions entre divers mouvements de droits et de justice. Les participant·e·s en tirent des sources d’espoir, d’énergie et d’imagination débridée, tout en approfondissant leurs analyses partagées et leurs apprentissages. C’est aussi un lieu de renforcement de la  solidarité entre mouvements qui permet de développer des programmes d’action intégrés et de faire avancer des stratégies communes.       

Notre organisation est à la recherche de fonds pour participer à ce Forum afin de se connecter à d’autres activistes et mouvements du monde entier, de consolider nos stratégies et de partager notre travail. Les participant·e·s des années précédentes nous inspirent, notamment lorsque ces personnes décrivent le pouvoir de ce rassemblement mondial féministe :

 « Pendant quelques jours… les voix se sont tissées en une perspective mondiale sur l’état de l’égalité de genre. Et lorsque je dis mondiale, je fais référence à des traductions simultanées en sept langues… »

« Nous nous sommes rappelé·e·s que nous n’étions pas seul·e·s. Le Forum est un moyen pour traduire le collectif dans nos mouvements. En dépit des idéologies, des identités ou des frontières, notre force réside dans notre vision et notre soutien les un·e·s pour les autres. » 

Veuillez noter que ce Forum offrira de nombreux « espaces ouverts » et moments d’apprentissage et d’échange entre mouvements, mais aussi moins de sessions formelles.

Même si beaucoup de participant·e·s ne feront pas de présentation aux sessions formelles, le Forum offrira cependant un espace précieux d’apprentissage, de réflexion stratégique et d’expérimentation du pouvoir collectif en action des mouvements féministes.

Considérations budgétaires : 

Lors du calcul de vos coûts et du montant nécessaire à financer, il est important de prendre en compte certaines dépenses qui peuvent survenir. Voici des exemples d’éléments clés à considérer :

• Le prix du vol
• Les frais d’inscription au Forum (veuillez noter que même si vous obtenez un soutien de l’AWID via le Fonds d’accès, vous devez régler vous-même vos frais d’inscription)
• Les frais de visa
• L’assurance santé voyage
• Les transports locaux depuis et vers l’aéroport (taxis ou autres moyens de transport)
• Les frais d’escale, tels que l'hôtel et les repas, si votre voyage en avion comprend une longue correspondance
• L’hébergement, comprenant un jour de repos si vous avez parcouru une grande distance
• La technologie, comprenant l’accès WiFi et les frais de communication internationale si requis pendant le voyage (l’AWID fournira le WiFi pendant le Forum)
• Les coûts matériels pour tout support (visuels, rapports, travaux artistiques!) que vous souhaitez apporter, partager ou échanger durant le Forum
• Les frais accessoires et/ou per diems pour couvrir les repas et d’autres besoins qui peuvent survenir (tous les déjeuners et pauses-café/thé, ainsi qu’un dîner seront fournis par l’AWID durant le Forum)
• L’accessibilité, par exemple toute aide supplémentaire pouvant être jugée nécessaire pour que votre voyage soit confortable, sûr et sécurisant

Au plaisir de vous voir au Forum !

Communicating Desire

and Other Embodied Political Praxes

Communicating Desire

Host: We tend to think about communicating desire as something that is limited to the private intimacy of the bedroom and our personal relationships. But can we also think of this kind of communication as a structure, a praxis that informs our work, and how we are, how we do in the world?

Lindiwe
I believe that unfortunately in the past, expressing your sexuality has been limited. You were allowed to express it within the confines of your marriage, which was permitted, there have always been taboo and stigmas attached to expressing it any other way. When it comes to communicating, obviously the fact that certain stigmas are attached to expressing your sexuality or expressing your desire makes it a lot harder to communicate that in the bedroom or intimately with your partner. From my personal experience, I do believe that obviously if I feel more comfortable expressing myself outside of the bedroom on other matters or other topics, it’s easier for me to build that trust, because you understand conflict resolution with that particular person, you understand exactly how to make your communication special towards that particular person. It’s not easy. It’s something that is consistently done throughout whatever your engagement is, whether it’s your relationship or whether it’s casual and just in the moment. But I believe that confidence outside can definitely translate to how you communicate your desire.

Manal
Since childhood, a woman is raised with that, “you’re not allowed to talk about your body, you’re not allowed to talk about your desire,” which puts a heavy responsibility on women, especially girls in their teens when they need to express themselves and talk about these issues. So for me I think this is a big problem. You know, I have been married for more than 25 years, but still, until now, I cannot talk about my desires. I cannot say what I want or what I prefer, because it’s like I’m not allowed to go beyond this line. It’s like haram, despite it being my right. This is the case for all my friends, they just can’t express themselves in the right way.

Louise
Personally, I find that expressing our desires, my desires, however that expression comes in hand, has to do with the other, and the gaze that the other would have on me. So this is also something that we can link to cinema. And the gaze I would have on myself as well: what I think I am as an individual, but also what society expects of me and my sexuality. In the past, I somehow did the analogy between what happens in the bedroom and what happens in the workplace, because there is sometimes this dynamic of power, whether I want it or not. And oftentimes, verbal communication is harder than we think. But when it comes to representation in film, that’s a totally different game. We are very far away from what I guess all of us here would like to see on screen when it comes to just communicating sexual desires inside or outside the bedroom. 

Online and Embodied

Host: We can think about the digital world as embodied: while it might be virtual, it is not less real. And this was made clear in the context of AWID’s feminist realities festival, which took place entirely online. What does it mean then to talk about sexuality, collectively, politically, in online spaces? Do we navigate virtual spaces with our bodies and affects, and in this case, what are the different considerations? What does it do to communication and representation?

Lindiwe
Social media makes you feel community-based. When you express what it is that you want or like, there is someone who’s either going to agree or disagree, but those who do agree make you feel that you belong to a community. So it’s easier to throw it out into the universe, or for others to see, and potentially not get as much judgment. And I say this very loosely because sometimes, depending on what it is that you’re expressing, it either will get you vilified or celebrated. But when it comes to the bedroom, there is an intimacy and almost a vulnerability that is exposing you and different parts of you that is not as easy to give your opinion on. When it comes to expressing your desire, speaking it and saying it and maybe putting a Tweet or a social media post, or even liking and reading other communities that are same-minded is a lot easier than telling your partner, “this is how I want to be pleasured” or “this is how what I want you to do next,” because of the fear of rejection. But not only that, just the vulnerability aspect – allowing yourself to be bare enough to let the other person see into what you are thinking, feeling, and wanting – I think this is where the difference would come in for me personally. I feel it is a lot more community-based on social media, and it’s easier to engage in discourse. Whereas in the bedroom, you don’t want to necessarily kill the moment. But I think that also kind of helps you understand going forward, depending on the relationship with the person, how you would engage thereafter. So I always know that if I try to communicate something and I fail to do so in the moment, I can always try to bring it up outside of that moment and see what the reaction would be so I know how to approach it going forward.

Louise
You know the question in films is, I don’t know if the male gaze is done intentionally or not. Like we don’t really know that. What we know is that the reason why sexuality in general has been so heternormative and focused on penetration and not giving any space for women to actually ask for anything in films, is because most of the people who have been working in this industry and making decisions in terms of, you know, storytelling and editing have been white men. So rape revenge is this very weird film genre that was birthed in the 70s, and half of the story would be that a woman is being raped by one or multiple people, and in the other half, she would get her revenge. So usually she would murder and kill the people who have raped her, and sometimes other people next to them. At the beginning of the birth of this genre and for 30 years at least, those films were written, produced, and directed by men. This is why we also want so much representation. A lot of feminists and pioneers in queer filmmaking also used the act of filming in order to do that and to reclaim their own sexuality. I’m thinking about Barbara Hammer, who’s a feminist and queer pioneer in experimental cinema in the U.S. where she decided to shoot women having sex on 16mm, and by doing so reclaimed a space within the narrative that was exposed in film at that time. And there is also then the question of invisibilization: we know now, because of the internet and sharing knowledge, that women and queer filmmakers have been trying and making films since the beginning of cinema. We only realize it now that we have access to databases and the work of activists and curators and filmmakers.

Resisting Colonization

Host: And this opens up the conversation on the importance of keeping our feminist histories alive. The online worlds have also played a crucial role in documenting protests and resistance. From Sudan to Palestine to Colombia, feminists have taken our screens by storm, challenging the realities of occupation, capitalism, and oppression. So could we speak of communicating desire – the desire for something else – as decolonization?

Manal
Maybe because my village is just 600 residents and the whole village is one family – Tamimi – there are no barriers between men and women. We do everything together. So when we began our non-violent resistance or when we joined the non-violent resistance in Palestine, there was no discussion whether women should participate or not. We took a very important role within the movement here in the village. But when other villages and other places began to join our weekly protests, some men thought that if these women participate or join the protests, they will fight with soldiers so it will be like they’re easy women. There were some men who were not from the village who tried to sexually harass the women. But a strong woman who is able to stand in front of a soldier can also stand against sexual harassment. Sometimes, when other women from other places join our protest, they are shy at first; they don’t want to come closer because there are many men. If you want to join the protest, if you want to be part of the non-violent movement, you have to remove all these restrictions and all these thoughts from your mind. You have to focus on just fighting for your rights. Unfortunately, the Israeli occupation realizes this issue. For example, the first time I was arrested, I wear the hijab so they tried to take it off; they tried to take off my clothes, in front of everybody. There were like 300-400 people and they tried to do it. When they took me to the interrogation, the interrogator said: “we did this because we want to punish other women through you. We know your culture.” So I told him: “I don’t care, I did something that I believe in. Even if you take all my clothes off, everybody knows that Manal is resisting.”

Lindiwe
I think even from a cultural perspective, which is very ironic, if you look at culture in Africa, prior to getting colonized, showing skin wasn’t a problem. Wearing animal skin and/or hides to protect you, that wasn’t an issue and people weren’t as sexualized unless it was within context. But we conditioned ourselves to say, “you should be covered up” and the moment you are not covered up you are exposed, and therefore it will be sexualized. Nudity gets sexualized as opposed to you just being naked; they don’t want a little girl to be seen naked. What kind of society have we conditioned ourselves to be if you’re going to be sexualizing someone who is naked outside of the context of a sexual engagement? But environment definitely plays a big role because your parents and your grannies and your aunts say “no, don’t dress inappropriately,” or “no, that’s too short.” So you hear that at home first, and then the moment you get exposed outside, depending on the environment, whether it’s a Eurocentric or more westernized environment to what you are used to, then you are kind of free to do so. And even then, as much as you are free, there’s still a lot that comes with it in terms of catcalling and people still sexualizing your body. You could be wearing a short skirt, and someone feels they have the right to touch you without your permission. There is so much that is associated with regulating and controlling women’s bodies, and that narrative starts at home. And then you go out into your community and society and the narrative gets perpetuated, and you realize that you get sexualized by society at large too, especially as a person of color.

Resistance as Pleasure

Host: And finally, in what ways can our resistance be more than what we are allowed? Is there a place for pleasure and joy, for us and our communities?

Louise
Finding pleasure as resistance and resistance in pleasure, first for me there is this idea of the guerrilla filmmaking or the action of filming when you’re not supposed to or when someone told you not to, which is the case for a lot of women and queer filmmakers in the world right now. For example, in Lebanon, which is a cinema scene that I know very well, most of the lesbian stories that I’ve seen were shot by students in very short formats with “no production value” as the west would say – meaning with no money, because of the censorship that happens on an institutional level, but also within the family and within the private sphere. I would think that filming whatever, but also filming pleasure and pleasure within lesbian storytelling is an act of resistance in itself. A lot of times, just taking a camera and getting someone to edit and someone to act is extremely hard and requires a lot of political stance.

Lindiwe
I have a rape support group. I’m trying to assist women to reintegrate themselves from a sexual perspective: wanting to be intimate again, wanting to not let their past traumas influence so much how they move forward. It’s not an easy thing, but it’s individual. So I always start with understanding your body. I feel the more you understand and love and are proud of it, the more you are able to allow someone else into that space. I call it sensuality training, where I get them to start seeing themselves as not sexual objects, but as objects of pleasure and desire that can be interchangeable. So you’re worthy of receiving as well as giving. But that’s not only from a psychological point of view; it is physical. When you get out of the shower, you get out of the bath, and you’re putting lotion on your body, look at every part of your body, feel every part of your body, know when there are changes, know your body so well that should you get a new pimple on your knee, you are so aware of it because just a few hours ago it wasn’t there. So things like that where I kind of get people to love themselves from within, so they feel they are worthy of being loved in a safe space, is how I gear them towards claiming their sexuality and their desire.

Manal
You know we began to see women coming from Nablus, from Jerusalem, from Ramallah, even from occupied 48, who have to drive for 3-4 hours just to come to join the protests. After that we tried to go to other places, talk with women, tell them that they don’t have to be shy, that they should just believe in themselves and that there is nothing wrong in what we are doing. You can protect yourself, so where is the wrong in participating or in joining? Once I asked some women, “why are you joining?” And they said, “if the Tamimi women can do it, we can do it also.” To be honest I was very happy to hear this because we were like a model for other women. If I have to stand for my rights, it should be all my rights, not just one or two. We can’t divide rights.

AWID花了近兩年的時間尋找亞太區的論壇舉辦地點（每次論壇輪流在不同區域舉辦）。

我們先初步做了二手資料研究，徵詢盟友意見後，排除了這個區域的許多選擇，我們接著安排了一輪透徹的實地訪查，拜訪了尼泊爾、馬來西亞、斯里蘭卡、泰國、印尼及（之後的）台灣等地，我們每到一處，不只視察當地勤務基礎設施，還並與當地女性主義團體與運動者會面，深入了解當地環境以及運動者對於AWID國際論壇在當地舉行的潛在機會與風險。 

實地訪問期間，我們見識了在地精彩蓬勃，多元的女性主義運動。

AWID國際論壇這樣能帶來能見度，對於這類活動能帶來的機會與風險，他們常常表達矛盾的感受。有場會議開始後半小時，我們聽到與會的運動者一致認為AWID國際論壇會遇上大力反彈，同志人權議題是政治上的燙手山芋，基本教義派的保守團體會傾巢出動阻撓活動。當我們回應：「好，所以你們認為這提議不好。」運動者卻也都口徑一致：「當然該在這，我們要改變社會論調！」不是每個地方都可以聽到或看到這麼多女性主義運動者想把握有能見度的大型論壇，還準備好要面對當地的風險。不過，作為主辦方，要舉辦近2000位來自世界各地參與者的論壇，就我們的考量來說，風險與可行性有不同的計算方法。

我們也在斟酌這些問題：按照包容、互利、自決原則所組織的女性主義論壇代表著什麼？同時政府政策與實務通常都與這些原則牴觸（雖然觀光當局的官員很努力地排除障礙）。

在基礎建設外，我們也考量是否有機會能在國家政治環境下，推動某些國家級女性主義議題規劃

在許多地方，要掌握當地脈絡感覺像在鐘擺上，前一刻女性主義辯論還是開放安全的，下一刻就擺向赤裸裸的壓迫與排外；把女性主義要事當成政治討價還價籌碼犧牲，安撫右翼和反人權勢力。

這是一個令人清醒的反思過程，我們發現在全球各地，女性人權與性別正義運動所處的環境艱難到難以置信。

我們在亞太區面臨的挑戰讓我們思考：是否將論壇轉移到一個不同的區域來舉辦會輕鬆一點？可是今時今日，我們無法已無法像2012年一樣，在伊斯坦堡舉行AWID論壇，也無法像2016年一樣，移師到巴西。

考量到這些複雜因素，AWID選擇台北作為論壇舉辦地點的原因如下：

• 台北可提供我們多元的論壇與會者一個相對穩定與保障人身安全的環境。
• 台北同時也具備穩健的勤務服務能力，方便許多旅客來往（提供國際論壇與會者便利的電子簽證流程）
• 在地的女性主義運動社群非常歡迎論壇到來，並熱切想與全球的女權主義者串連。
  

在籌備AWID論壇時，我們盡全力建立並維持一個空間，能讓我們多元表現團結、憤怒、希望、靈感，這是女性主義運動的核心。

此刻，我們認為在亞太區，台北是最適合的地方，能讓我們為全球女性主義社群打造那個安全造反的空間。

實際上，要舉行一個以女性主義理念實現為中心的論壇，現今的世界是找不到一個理想地點的。無論去哪，我們必須一起打造那個空間！

Accessibility and Health

Continuez à explorer Incarnations transnationales

Cette édition du journal, en partenariat avec Kohl : a Journal for Body and Gender Research (Kohl : une revue pour la recherche sur le corps et le genre) explorera les solutions, propositions et réalités féministes afin de transformer notre monde actuel, nos corps et nos sexualités.

Explorer

by Amal Amer, California, US

I pray with my family for the first time in six years while wrapped in a keffiyah I scavenged from a dumpster.

Since coming into myself, I have refused to pray in jamaat with my family. Joining in the ranks of hierarchy, “women” behind “men” irks me. It grates my skin and teeth to the degree where I can’t focus, and the standing, bowing, and kneeling feels like a battle against my true being. Each second listening, a betrayal of my nature. Instead, I pray by myself in my own way. 

Yet this Ramadan, I feel different. Back in my childhood home after many years, I am choosing to fast. I choose suhoor with my family, and praying together feels like a natural extension of eating together. After eating, my mother, father, brother and I line up for fajr. 

I pray behind Baba, but my prayer is my own. I close my eyes, staying with my breath and my body. 

My eyes closed, I open my inner sight to a wide open window on a vista of mountains, bright sun spreading over a light mist of clouds. This was the view I had while praying in jamaat at a queer Muslim wedding I attended in the mountains of the South of France last September. 

I lined up with the wedding guests, queer and trans folks of North and West African, Arab, and European descent. Folks of all faiths joined while some chose to stand in respect at the sides or behind. The groups did not fall along fault lines of “Muslim” or “non-Muslim,”  “religious” or “non religious.” The two lovers marrying each led us in prayer, and so did the Muslim woman officiating the nikkah. Each of the three led us in two rounds of prayers, two raqat.

I showed up as I was, my body uncovered. I had not washed. I only passed my camera to a friend who chose to stand at the side. 

In the first sujood, I broke down crying. I wore a jean dress that loves my body, one found at a thrift store my ex-girlfriend pointed me to.

The sobs come through my whole body during the prayer, and I put my head to the earth with my community like a homecoming. A return to the embrace of love both intensely personal and communal, and I am held.

It feels like swimming in the sea with multiple people:  joyful togetherness. But when you go beneath the water, it’s just you and the current. 

Like a dozen people buried in the same graveyard. Separate, but sharing the same soil. Becoming one with the growing earth. 

That was how it felt to pray in communion at a queer Muslim wedding.

I welcomed the light of acceptance while showing up as myself that day, with a group of people who had also chosen to claim all the parts of themselves in love. That light made a home in me, and it illuminates my heart in the dark living room at fajr this Ramadan morning. Though I pray with my birth family who do not accept all of me, I see myself praying in jamaat at that glorious wedding with all of my queer Muslim ancestors, my queer angels, my lineage, my soul family, my queer Muslim family, all standing in prayer. Bowing as one. 

My family’s home does not always feel like my own, though I am here now. I take the bukhoor from room to room, barefoot. Smolder from the censer, an incense that says, “Here I am.” Baraka, blessings from the source of all, Allah and the Goddess to each room in the house, bidding good and dispersing the unbidden. 

As I write this the sky turns the same royal blue I am familiar with from exiting the club and pulling all-nighters. It is the gradient of morning I step into as I go to sleep. 

Word meanings:

• Ramadan: the Muslim holy month, traditionally observed with 29 days of fasting without food or water during daylight hours

• Keffiyah: a patterned scarf common in the SWANA region. The black and white version referred to here is associated with the Palestinian liberation movement 

• Pray in jamaat: Islamic ritual prayer in a group. Participants follow one person, traditionally male, who calls the prayer aloud.

• Suhoor: the meal before the fast starts at dawn

• Fajr: the dawn prayer

• Baba: father

• Raqat: one round of prayer consisting of standing, bowing, kneeling, and pressing the head to the ground

• Sujood:the prayer position when one presses one’s head to the earth

• Nikkah: the religious marriage ceremony 

• Bukhoor: an Arabic incense, woodchips soaked in resin

• Baraka: blessing

“Angels go out at night too”

by Chloé Luu (@Electrichildren), France

Pictures of angels in my life, just some women and non-binary people of color hanging out, taking care of themselves and expressing love to each other. It's these simplest moments that are the most empowering.

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