Priority Areas

Supporting feminist, women’s rights and gender justice movements to thrive, to be a driving force in challenging systems of oppression, and to co-create feminist realities.

Co-Creating Feminist Realities

While we dream of a feminist world, there are those who are already building and living it. These are our Feminist Realities!

What are Feminist Realities?

Feminist Realities are the living, breathing examples of the just world we are co-creating. They exist now, in the many ways we live, struggle and build our lives.

Feminist Realities go beyond resisting oppressive systems to show us what a world without domination, exploitation and supremacy look like.

These are the narratives we want to unearth, share and amplify throughout this Feminist Realities journey.

Transforming Visions into Lived Experiences

Through this initiative, we:

  • Create and amplify alternatives: We co-create art and creative expressions that center and celebrate the hope, optimism, healing and radical imagination that feminist realities inspire.

  • Build knowledge: We document, demonstrate & disseminate methodologies that will help identify the feminist realities in our diverse communities.

  • Advance feminist agendas: We expand and deepen our collective thinking and organizing to advance just solutions and systems that embody feminist values and visions.

  • Mobilize solidarity actions: We engage feminist, women’s rights and gender justice movements and allies in sharing, exchanging and jointly creating feminist realities, narratives and proposals at the 14th AWID International Forum.


The AWID International Forum

As much as we emphasize the process leading up to, and beyond, the four-day Forum, the event itself is an important part of where the magic happens, thanks to the unique energy and opportunity that comes with bringing people together.

We expect the next Forum to:

  • Build the power of Feminist Realities, by naming, celebrating, amplifying and contributing to build momentum around experiences and propositions that shine light on what is possible and feed our collective imaginations

  • Replenish wells of hope and energy as much needed fuel for rights and justice activism and resilience

  • Strengthen connectivity, reciprocity and solidarity across the diversity of feminist movements and with other rights and justice-oriented movements

Learn more about the Forum process

We are sorry to announce that the 14th AWID International Forum is cancelled

Given the current world situation, our Board of Directors has taken the difficult decision to cancel Forum scheduled in 2021 in Taipei. 

Read the full announcement

Find out more!

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Obiageli “Oby” Nwankwo

With a legal career spanning more than 30 years, Oby was known across Africa and around the world as a champion for gender justice and human rights.

She founded and served as Executive Director of the Civil Resource Development and Documentation Centre (CIRDDOC), a Nigerian NGO which sponsors trainings and network-building activities for members of civil society, parliamentarians and other key stakeholders to promote human rights, good governance and access to justice and rule of law.

Oby is remembered fondly by activists in Nigeria as an “extraordinary activist who displayed energy and passion towards the fight for gender equality and gender justice in Nigeria and across Africa.” 

 


 

Obiageli “Oby” Nwankwo, Nigeria

Snippet FEA Wage Parity (EN)

Illustration of two a pair of white-skinned people in glasses, to the left in the background is a mand and to the right at the forefront is a woman. The background is turquoise.

WAGE PARITY

Alternative framework for economic governance

Context

The current global economic crisis provides stark evidence that the economic policies of the last 3 decades have not been working.

The devastation that the crisis has wrought on the most vulnerable households in the Global North and Global South is a reminder that the formulation of economic policy and the realization of human rights (economic, social, political, civil and cultural) have for too long been divorced from one another. Economic policy and human rights do not have to be opposing forces, but can exist symbiotically.

Macroeconomic policies affect the operation of the economy as a whole, shaping the availability and distribution of resources. Within this context, fiscal and monetary policies are key.

Definition

  • Fiscal policy refers to both public revenue and public expenditure, and the relationships between them as expressed in the government budget.
  • Monetary policy includes policies on interest and exchange rates and the money supply, as well as the regulation of the financial sector.
  • Macroeconomic policies are implemented using instruments such as taxation, government spending, and control over the supply of money and credit.

These policies affect key prices such as interest and exchange rates that directly influence, among other things, the level of employment, access to affordable credit, and the housing market.

Applying a human rights framework to macroeconomic policy allows States to better comply with their obligation to respect, protect, and fulfill economic and social rights. Human rights are internationally agreed-upon universal standards. These legal norms are articulated in United Nations treaties including, the Universal Declaration of Human Rights (UDHR), the International Covenant on Civil and Political Rights (ICCPR), and the International Covenant on Economic, Social and Cultural Rights (ICESCR).

Article 1 of the UDHR states that, “All human beings are born free and equal in dignity and rights.”

Although the UDHR was written about six decades ago its relevance is enduring. Many of the ideas address concerns and critical issues that people continue to face globally. Issues regarding inhuman punishment (Art. 5), discrimination (Art. 7), property ownership (Art. 17), equal pay for equal work (Art. 23/2), and access to education (Art. 26/1) are pertinent matters in countries South and North of the equator.

More specifically, States have an obligation under international law to respect, protect and fulfill human rights, including the economic and social rights of people within their jurisdiction. This is particularly relevant now given the financial crisis. In the U.S., regulation is skewed in favor of certain interests. The failure to extend government’s supervisory role in the context of social and economic change is a failure with regard to the obligation to protect human rights.

Feminist perspective

States should abide by key human rights principles to achieve economic and social rights. Some of the principles have potentially important implications for governance of financial institutions and markets, yet these possibilities have been underexplored.

Economic and social rights have a concrete institutional and legal grounding. Global declarations, international treaties, covenants, and, in a number of cases, national constitutions have incorporated aspects of the economic and social rights framework—providing an institutional infrastructure in national and international law.

Some have suggested that a consideration of global justice may not be a useful pursuit because of the institutional complexities involved. However, this does not get around that fact that global institutions already have an impact on social justice, both positive and negative.

It is useful to tease out the implications that elements of alternative frameworks have for economic governance, specifically those supported by existing institutions. Economic and social rights represent one such concrete framework. The framework is an evolving one, and ongoing discussion and deliberation is necessary to address underdeveloped areas and potential deficiencies.


Learn more about this proposition

This section is based on CWGL’s blog “Applying a Human Rights Framework to Macroeconomic Policies” (2012).

Part of our series of


  Feminist Propositions for a Just Economy

Sue Hoya Sellars

Sue was an artist, activist and teacher born in 1936 in Maryland, USA.

Sue created art for women, about women. As a lesbian feminist, and for a time, a separatist, she was committed to creating women-only spaces. In 1976 she purchased land that is still held by women who visit to make art. Sue took a fierce stand on the protection of women and girls.

With her groundbreaking futuristic, classical and anthropological approach, she filled any room she entered with intellect, authentic eccentricity, unforgiving wit, and humor.  Her ideas about consciousness and creativity continue to inspire many people.


 

Sue Hoya Sellars, USA

Snippet FEA Sabrina Sanchez Bio (EN)

Meet Sabrina Sanchez, remarkable trans migrant woman, sex worker, organizer, transfeminist and one of the founders of the union OTRAS.

Originally from Mexico City, she migrated to Spain 17 years ago after getting a degree in communications and started working as a sex worker.

It didn’t take long before she became involved with trans activism and sex worker activism in Barcelona. After joining the collective Asociación de Profesionales del Sexo (Association of Sex Workers, Aprosex), she started working in its secretariat and founded the Spanish sex workers union OTRAS.

She currently lives in Amsterdam where she works as the coordinator of the European Sex Workers’ Alliance.

Fun fact: she’s also a car mechanic and serious runner!

Defending our land and ourselves from corporate power

These industries 'extract' raw materials from the Earth: mining, timber, gas, oil are some examples

This economical model exploits nature and as it intensifies, so does the inequality between global North with their large corporations, and the global South, where resources are extracted.

Land contamination, water pollution, environmental damage, communities displaced are only some of the consequences.

Find more on our report on EXTRACTIVE INDUSTRIES

There are sustainable alternatives for the environment and women's rights.

 

Peni Moore

Peni was a radical feminist philosopher, poet, writer, playwright and songwriter.

As the first coordinator for the Fiji Women’s Rights Movement, she left a legacy that was infused with her deep concern for women’s human rights, justice and peace. Peni’s commitment to social, economic and ecological justice and her outstanding work gained local and international respect. She was one of the first in mainstream feminist movements in Fiji to work with, and beside LGBTQI people as a real accomplice, and provided practical assistance to the early Fiji sex worker movement.

Her colleagues described her as a formidable individual and visionary leader for change. She inspired many by her creativity and courage. Her work provided platforms for people to be heard, attain new skills and forge new pathways both at the personal and community level.


 

Peni Moore, Fiji

Snippet - Podcast Intro (EN)

We are thrilled to announce the launch of AWID’s new podcast THAT FEMINIST FIRE. Our narrative series unravels over 40 years of feminist movements—and reimagines a way forward.

In our pilot season, you’ll hear five compelling stories that are part of a constellation of feminist activism today. Hosted by our very own Gopika Bashi, Deputy Director of Programmes at AWID, each episode explores unique but interconnected feminist realities that are achieving greater gender justice and human rights.

Produced by our Webby-winning podcast partner Hueman Group Media, you can subscribe to THAT FEMINIST FIRE and listen to our first episode here.

Find us on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever you get your podcasts. Share with your network! Help us spread stories that ignite our feminist fire and move us to action.

Subscribe here

Download your faciliation guide:

"A Feminist Approach to Understanding Illicit Financial Flows and Redirecting Global Wealth"

IFF Toolkit

Download your facilitation guide in English

This Guide is also available in Spanish and Russian


Thanks to the co-creators of this facilitation guide:

  • Daniela Fonkatz and Ana Ines Abelenda (AWID)
  • Zenaida Joachim (Mesoamericanas en Resistencia - El Salvador)
  • Olga Shnyrova (Ivanovo Center for Gender Studies - Russia)
  • Leah Eryenyu (Akina Mama Wa Afrika - Uganda)
  • Daryl Leyesa (Oriang and PKKK/National Rural Women Congress - the Philippines)

Su’ad Al-Ali

Su’ad was a strong advocate of women’s and children’s rights, and was the head of Al-Weed Al-Alaiami - an Iraqi human rights organisation.

She participated in the July 2018 demonstrations that took place in Basra and several other Iraqi cities protesting unemployment and demanding jobs and proper public services for citizens, as well as calling for the elimination of rampant corruption.

On 25 September 2018, Su’ad was assassinated in the Al-Abbasiyah district in downtown Basra. A video of the incident showed a person approaching her as she was getting into her car, firing a bullet at the back of her head and pointing another bullet at her driver Hussain Hassan, who was injured in the shoulder. Al-Ali was 46 and the mother of four children.


 

Su'ad Al Ali, Iraq

Snippet Forum Quoate Jac s m Kee, Malaysia (EN)

There is nothing like being in a shared space, exchanging body energies,... seeing the world and doing something together. Events like the Forum are among the strongest of the global feminist movement.
- Jac s m Kee, Malaysia

Principles of Engagement

Welcome to Crear | Résister | Transform: a festival for feminist movements!

Principles of Engagement

AWID is committed to creating an online space that invites and challenges us all to operate from a place of courage, curiosity, generosity and shared responsibility.

We invite you to co-create spaces with us that are free of harassment and violence, where everyone is respected in their gender identity and expression, race, ability, class, religion, language, ethnicity, age, occupation, type of education, sexuality, body size, and physical appearance. Spaces where we recognize inequalities in our world and strive to transform them in our own interactions with each other.


We want to create a space where ...

  • we can all be present

This means that we are able to listen, understand and relate to each other. To feel close, in spite of it all being virtual.  For this, we will make interpretation available and open channels (like chat and other tools) for you to react and share. To hear each other better, we invite you to wear headphones during the conversation. If it is possible for you , we suggest  that you close your email and any other likely source of distraction while you are in the conversation. 

  • all forms of knowledge are valued

Let us celebrate the multiple ways in which knowledge shows up in our lives. We invite you to approach the conversation with curiosity and openness to learn from others, allowing ourselves to unlearn and relearn through the exchange, as a way to start collectively building knowledge.  

  • all of us feel welcome

We are committed to holistically approaching accessibility by being mindful of different physical, language, mental and safety needs. We want a space that is welcoming of folks from various  backgrounds, beliefs, abilities and experiences. We will be proactive but we also ask that you communicate your needs with us, and we will do our best within our capacity to address these needs.

  • all of us feel safe and respected:

We all commit individually and collectively to respect each other’s privacy and to seek people’s consent before sharing any images or content generated during the conversation that involves them.


Creating a safer, respectful and enjoyable environment for the conversations, is everybody's responsibility.


Reporting

If you notice that someone is behaving in a discriminatory or offensive manner, please contact the reference person who will be indicated at the beginning of the session.

Any participants that express oppressive language or images, will be removed from the call and will not be readmitted. We will not engage with them in any way.

Nadyn Jouny

The personal is political - and fiery and courageous Nadyn Jouny personified this feminist mantra. Nadyn experienced firsthand the pain of structural violence in legal systems that strip women of their rights.

When she decided to file for divorce, the religious Shitte courts under the Lebanese Personal Status laws, denied her custody of her young son Karam. Nadyn, like so many other women across Lebanon and other countries, was caught in the impossible pain of leaving an unwanted and abusive relationship and also losing the rights to her child. But Nadyn fought back, as she would until her last day.

She used her media savvy to become an outspoken voice to women fighting discriminatory family laws in Lebanon and internationally. Nadyn co-founded the self-funded group, “Protecting Lebanese Women” (PLW) and banded with many other Lebanese mothers facing similar custody issues. Together, they advocated to raise awareness of the injustices they were facing, protesting in front of the religious courts for their rights and bringing international media attention to extreme injustices they were facing.    

Nadyn also worked with ABAAD - Resource Center for Gender Equality, another women’s rights organization in Lebanon, to campaign for women’s rights, equality in family law and custody and against forced and early marriages.

For many of her colleagues, she came to “symbolize a Lebanese mother’s fight against suppression and misogyny of all sorts," using “her personal experiences and her individual journey of empowerment to give hope to others that they can be a catalyst for positive change.”- ABAAD - Resource Centre for Gender Equality, Lebanon

On October 6, 2019 Nadyn was tragically killed in a car accident on her way to protest unfair tax increases in a country already facing spiralling financial crisis. Nadyn Jouny was only 29 years old at the time of her death.

What about the visas?

We are acutely aware of the practical hurdles and emotional distress associated with international travel, particularly from the Global South. AWID is working with TCEB (the Thailand Convention and Exhibition Bureau) to support Forum participants with acquiring visas. More information about this visa assistance will be available upon registration, including contact information for where and how to apply.

The Crear, Résister, Transform Story by Coumba Toure

A magical experience of feminist story telling led by pan-African feminist Coumba Toure, performing in the age old tradition of West African griots.

And we gathered again 
We gathered our stories our strength 
our songs
our tears 
our rage 
our dreams 
our success
our failures
And we pull them all together 
In one big bowl to share 
for a moon of thoughts 
And we stay in touch 
We shake each others minds 
we caress each other souls
While our hands still are tied 
And our kisses and hugs are banned 
Yet we grow stronger by the hour 
Weaving together our voices
Crossing the sound barriers 
as we speak in tongues 

We are getting louder and louder 
We know about differences from others 
and from each other so we are stitching our beauties into patchwork or thoughts
From our deepest learnings from our powers 
Sometimes we are surrounded by terror 
by confusions by dishonesty
But we wash out in the Ocean of love 
We are weavers of dreams 
To clothes or new world 
Thread after thread
As small as we are
Like little ants building our movement
Llike little drops building our rivers
 We take steps forward and steps backward 
Dancing our way back to sanity 
Sustain to the rhythm of our hearts keep 
Beating please don't not stop
And we are here transmitter of forgotten generosity 
drop after drop growing like the ocean 
growing like the river flowing from our souls .
showing our strength  to be  the  water 
that will clean this world
and we are gathering again can you feel us 
I would lie if I say I said I am 
Ok not to see you I do miss my people 
I miss your touch and
You unfiltered and unrecorded voices 
I miss our whispers and our screams 
Our cries of the aborted revolution 
We only want to give birth to new worlds 
 So fight to erase the borders between us 


And we gathered again 
We gathered our stories our strength 
our songs
our tears 
our rage 
our dreams 
our success
our failures
And we pull them all together In one big bowl to share 
For a moon of thoughts 
And we stay in touch 
We shake each others minds 
we caress each other souls
While our hands still are tied 
And our kisses and hugs are banned 
Yet we grow stronger by the hour 
Weaving together our voices
Crossing the sound barriers 
as we speak in tongues 
We are getting louder and louder 
We know about differences from others 
and from each other so we are stitching our beauties into patchwork or thoughts
From our deepest learnings from our powers Sometimes we are surrounded by terror by Confusions by dishonesty
But we watch out in the Ocean of love 
We are weavers of dreams 
To clothes or new world 
Thread after thread 
As small as we are like little ants building our movements
 like little drops building our rivers We take steps forward and steps backward 
dancing our way back to sanity 
Sustain to the rhythm of our hearts
keep beating please don't not stop
And we are here transmitter of forgotten generosity 
Drop after drop growing like the ocean 
growing like the river flowing from our souls 
showing our strength to be  the  water 
that will clean this world  
and we are gathering again can you feel us 
I would lie if I I said I am Ok
not to see you
I do miss my people
I miss your touch and
You unfiltered and unrecorded voices  
I miss  our  whispers  and  our screams 
Our cries over the aborted revolutions 
We only want to give birth to new worlds 
So fight to erase the borders between us 
Please don’’t stop

Jaitun

Jaitun, commonly referred to as ‘Amma’, was committed to ensuring the reproductive rights of women and girls in India. She was particularly dedicated to advocating for those living in poverty and who are most marginalized, including Dalit and Muslim women and girls.

Jaitun was the vital force behind the case Jaitun v Janpura Maternity Home & Ors. Her perseverance for justice led to a ground-breaking judgment issued by the High Court of Delhi, holding the Indian government accountable for failing to deliver a number of its legally-binding obligations such as reproductive health care and the right to food.

Her daughter Fatema who was living under the poverty line was denied reproductive services and had to deliver her child in public, under a tree. At the time, both Jaitun and Fatema were homeless as a result of their home being demolished by the government as part of redevelopment and gentrification in New Delhi.

“The judgment has since been used by countless lawyers and activists globally, including the Former United Nations Special Rapporteur on the Right to Health, not only as a source of inspiration but as a solid springboard to further justice.” - Jameen Kaur

Jaitun has inspired many other women living in poverty to claim their rights. She passed away in 2017.

“In Jaitun’s death, we have now lost an inimitable warrior for justice, but her spirit of defiance lives on.” - Jameen Kaur

“In my 18 years as a human rights advocate, I have not met a woman that has inspired and moved my spirit in the same way Amma did. Her roaring courage; her imitable humour - we used to compare her to the Bollywood actress Hema Melini - as she would be upset we had spent so much time away from her - she would say, with a twinkle in her eye, ‘You have forgotten Amma, Amma is not speaking to you’ and then with great dramatics turn her back, only to turn around laughing and stretching her arms out for a hug. Her kindness and ultimately her love and joy for love and the right for all of us to live with dignity. I miss her terribly.” - Jameen Kaur
 

CFA 2023 - Hybrid like never before: in person - EN

Hybrid like never before

For the first time, the AWID Forum offers three modes of participation

In-person

Participants will come together in Bangkok, Thailand. We can’t wait!

بصمة حبّ جماعيّة

تصوير مريم مكيوي
ترجمة فيفيان عقيقي

Decorative element
Teta Research Network
Wazina Zondon Portrait
تُعرَف أيضًا باسم “شبكة تيتا للأبحاث”. دائرة الكتابة: العصبةُ المتآمرة هي مجموعة عابرة للقوميات من الكتّاب الكويريين والنسويين الذين يتشاركون في الكتابة الجماعية والتفكير وصنع العالم. أعضاء المؤامرة هم: أحمد قيس منهزم، أحمد عوض الله، ألينا آخنباخ، باربرا ديندا، سيندي سلامة، دلال الفارس، ديباراتي سركار، فرح جلال عثمان، ج. دانييل لوثر، جان مخلوطة، لينا قليلات، حنا الطاهر، ماريا نجار، مايا بهاردواج، مادوليكا سنكار، ملاك الأكحل، ميريام عمري، نيحاريكا بانديت، نور المزيدي، رؤيا حسن، سارة البنا، سارة تونسي، شيرين شلاح، وازنة زندن، زينب أحمد. وازنة زندن (wazina.com) أفغانية نشأت في مدينة نيويورك، يركز عملها على جمع ورواية القصص المتعلقة بالذكريات الجماعية وطقوس العبور في الشتات. بصفتها تقدم آداءات روائية غير رسمية ولا تتبع منهجية معينة، تساهم وازنة في تقديم عرض بعنوان الخروج من المختبأ: الأفعال الراديكالية المتعلقة بالحب. يعد هذا العرض آداءًا شخصيًا لسرد قصص تجسد تجربة أن يكون المرء كويريًا ومسلمًا في آن. تقدم وازنة هذا الآداء إلى جانب نظيرتها الإبداعية وأختها الروحية ترنا دلي جيادو. حاليًا، تعمل على “الإيمان: في الحب / الإيمان في الحب” الذي (يعيد) تتبع قصة علاقة والديها ونصوص الحب الموروثة من العائلة.

 

الحبّ هروب في الجحيم
الحبّ أسيد يذوِّب الحانات 
لكن أنت، أنا والغد
نمسك أيدينا ونتعاهد
بأنّ هذا الكفاح سوف يستمرّ
للمنشار حدّان
للبندقية ماسورتان
نحن حبالى الحرّية
نحن مؤامرة
من واجبنا الكفاح من أجل الحرّية
من واجبنا الفوز
يجب أن نحبّ بعضنا وندعم بعضنا
لا يوجد ما نخسره سوى قيودنا

«الحبّ» لأساتا شاكور

Cover for article A Collective Love Print showing two people kissing

«إذا استطعنا أن نرِث صدمةً، فهل يمكننا أن نرث بصمةً مُرتبطة بالحبّ؟»

هذا هو السؤال الذي تطرحه وازنة زوندُن في مذكّراتها «بصمة حبّ». «بصمة حبّ» هو تطواف، تداخل، انحراف يَخلق (أو يعيد خلق)، عند تقاطع المقابلات والمقالات الشخصيّة، قصص عائلاتنا ورؤىً عن الحبّ والشراكة والرومانسية. بتوجيهٍ من وازنة، اجتمعت مؤامرة كتّاب الدائرة، وحاولت إعادة إنتاج هذا المُخطّط الحرفي على شكل كتابة جماعيّة، حيث تُكمِّل قصصنا وهويّاتنا الجنسية والجندرية المُختلفة بعضها البعض، وتتناقض فيما بينها. مع تداخل أصواتنا، نُكمِّل جُمَلَ بعضنا لنخلق محادثة، تذكاراً، وأجزاء من أنفسنا تتحدّث إلى الـ»نحن».

ما هي أصول «بصمة حبّ»؟

أنا من يُسمّى «حادثة سعيدة». هناك الكثير من الروايات عن الأمر – حياة عرضية، إنّما مطلوبة في الوقت نفسه. أظن أنّ هذه هي طريقتي في الحبّ، فأنا لا أقع في الحبّ فقط؛ أنا أخاطر بانزلاق يؤدّي إلى السقوط. ربّما جعلني الأمر شخصاً قدره الحبّ.

قيل لي إنني طفلة غير مرغوب فيها. لذلك كَبِرت لأصبح شخصًا بالغًا غير مرغوب فيه. أصول «بصمة حبّ» تستند إلى كوني شخص غير مرحّب به بالأساس. أنا لستُ ثمرة حبّ أو أي مشاعر سعيدة، بل ثمرة ألَم وعبء. ليس لديّ بصمة حبّ – أقلّه بهذا المعنى.

أعرف أنّ والديّ كانا في حالة حبٍّ في مرحلة ما، لكنّ الصحّة العقلية شيطان، إلى حين يواجه المرء شياطينه، لا يوجد ربح.

لن أربط أبداً «الحبّ» بوالديّ أو عائلتي. كان الحبّ الذي يكبر مليئًا بالعنف والمسؤوليّات التي لم أشترك بها ولم أكن مستعدّة لها. شعرت لوقت طويل أنّ الحياة والحبّ يدوران حول حِملٍ مُرهِق وشاقّ. بينما كان والدايْ «يحبّان بعضهما البعض»، كانت روحٌ سامّة من العنف والغيرة وانعدام الأمن تنمو أيضاً. نشأتُ وأنا أتوق إلى الاستقرار، وهذا ما أنا عليه الآن. أنا مُجازفة، لكن ليس في «مساحة الحبّ».

لا أعرف لماذا اختارت والدتي استضافة طفل (أنا) في داخلها. هي لا تحبّ بهذا الشكل.

قالت لي والدتي إنّه إذا كان عليّ التفكير في «إيجاد» الحبّ، أن لا أنظر إلى زواجها كنموذج. تأتي «بصمة حبّ» بدلاً من تربية كلب على مدار عقدين ماضيين (18 عامًا لأكون دقيقة). والعكس صحيح أيضًا – لقد ربّوني. بتّ أفهم المزيد عن الحبّ وطبقاته العديدة في صحبتهم.

لم أعرف الحبّ من «بصمة». في منزلنا لا نتحدّث عن الحبّ. كان عليّ أن أعلّم نفسي كيف أحبّ. لقد كان عملاً صعباً. ما زلت أفشل، وما زلت أحاول وأفشل كلّ يوم. ربّما الفشل هو بصمة حبّي.

بصمة حبّي هي الرعاية والدفء والفهم الذي أعطيهم للمُحيطين بي، سواء كانوا غرباء أم أصدقاء أم أقارب أم عشيقاً. بصمة حبّي سياسيّة – غير محسوبة وغير مدروسة.

وُلدتُ تحت قصف عنيف. بصمة حبّي هي بصمة سلبية عن تلك الأحداث.

دروس مُستقاة عن الحبّ

أعرف ما هو ليس حبّاً أكثر ممّا أعرف الحبّ.

الحبّ ليس قلقاً ولا ذعراً.

الحبّ لا يطلب الإذن ليعيش أو يتنفّس. إنه الحبّ، ولا يوجد حبّ من دون حرّية.

كلّ ما تفعله هو استخدام قلبك من دون الحبّ. الحبّ هو أن تستخدم عقلك.

أحيانًا أخشى أن تضيع لغة حبّي في الترجمة.

--- هناك طرق عدّة
لرسم أصول
كيف
وكيف لا
تحبّ
الحبّ
ليس حبّاً
الحبّ كافٍ فقط
الحبّ بعيد جدّاً
بعض الحبّ
بعض الخسارة
لتحبّ
لتحبّ الخسارة ---

لا أستطيع تحمّل فكرة الزوجين. لا يمكنني تحمّل فكرة العيش بمفردي أثناء الشيخوخة أيضًا. لقد سئمتُ من القيام بالأعمال المنزلية بمفردي، والانتقال من منزل إلى آخر بمفردي، ودفع الإيجار والفواتير بمفردي... أتخيّل إصابتي بجلطة دماغية وأنا بمفردي، وهذا يخيفني. ليس لديّ خطّة «شراكة». أريد عالمًا يمكنني فيه الزواج من صديق، وشراء منزل مع صديق، وعدم ممارسة الجنس.
 

أن نحبّ كثيرين لا يفسد الحبّ المُشترك بين شخصين. سواء كان الحبّ رومانسيًا أم لا فهذا ليس مهمّاً حقًا.

عندما أفكّر في علاقاتي الرديئة، أُدرك أنني مُرتبطة بعلاقة تدرّبتُ لأكون فيها. مع كلّ «راديكاليّتي» لم أتخلّص بعد من الأعراف الجندرية القذرة.

حاجتي إلى الاستقرار «ليست جذّرية» بما فيه الكفاية. أريد الخروج من هذه الوصمة. أريد شيئًا لم أحصل عليه من قبل. أريد أن أجعله جم

--- بصمة حبّ – أحبّ شمّ الكتب لمعرفة مكان طباعتها
أحاول التفكير في أصل فهمي وممارستي الحبّ
هل نحتاج إلى أصول، فهو ليس مثل النقاء؟ لا طهارة ولا أصل للحبّ.
لماذا يتبادر الفهم والممارسة إلى الذهن وليس «العاطفة»؟ ---

عندما أتّصل بوالدَيْ، لا أغلق الهاتف بعد قول الوداع، لكي أتمكّن من سماع أصوات المنزل.
 

ما الذي نحتاجه لكي نقع في/ نشعر بالحبّ في الموت؟

أثناء دفني وفق طقوس المذهب السنّي، أريد أن يجتمع كلّ الرجال والنساء معاً. لا أفهم سبب عدم القدرة على توديع الموتى من جنس مختلف؟ سوف تكون مراسم دفني وفق الطقوس السنّية لأن والدتي قد ترغب بذلك. سوف يكون دفني صديقاً للبيئة. لا حاجة لوضع شاهد فوق قبري. أنا أحبّ كلّ طقوس الدفن. القرآن جيّد، لكنّي أريد موسيقى أيضًا. أحبّ أسمهان جدّاً، وأم كلثوم، وذا ستون روزيز.s.

لديّ قائمة تشغيل من الاثنين إلى الجمعة، وقائمتان مختلفتان لعطلة نهاية الأسبوع: واحدة ليوم السبت والأخرى ليوم الأحد. أودّ ممّن يحبّوني أن يشغّلوا الموسيقى التي كنت أستمع إليها مع الالتزام بقوائم الأيّام – هناك هامش حرّية في اختيار الأغاني طالما يلتزمون بقوائم التشغيل.

أريد أن أكون مُحاطة بمن أحبّني، ولو للحظة. مع الموسيقى والأزهار المقطوفة. لا أريد أن يشعروا بغيابي. أريد أن أموت على وقع ضحكات من أحبّهم.

أريد أن يتذكّروني كشخص يحبّ.
 

لست بحاجة للشعور بالحبّ في الموت. أريد ممّن حولي أن يشعروا بأنني أحبّبتهم، حتّى بعد موتي. أن تكون محبوبًا في الموت هو أمر مُرتبط بمَن لا يزالون على قيد الحياة. لذلك أفكّّر أكثر في كيفيّة لقائنا معًا كمجتمع حيّ ومحبّ في موت مَن نحبّهم ونعيش معهم. كيف نأخذ ذكرياتهم معنا. كيف نصبح أرشيفاً لحياتهم.

--- في بعض الأحيان يمكنك أن تحبّ الناس في موتهم فقط --

عليّ التفكير في الجسد المُتّصل بمساحة. عائلتي صغيرة جدًا، وعلى الرغم من أننا نأتي من أماكن مختلفة، لكن يبدو كما لو أن كلّ جيل انتقل إلى مكانٍ جديد. ربّما هذا هو سبب عدم ارتباط الموت بمكان خاص: مقبرة. من الشائع في عائلتنا دفن الموتى من دون أسماء أو شواهد قبور، أو ترك الرماد يتحرّر بتطايره مع الريح. أشعر بسلام إذا كان ذكري مُنفصلاً عن المكان. مجرّد التفكير بأن رمادي يُخصّب حياة جديدة، وأنّه يتمّ ذكري في أوقات التسلية والفرح، يعطيني إحساسًا بأنني محبوبة. توفّيت جدّتي في وقت سابق من هذا العام بسبب مضاعفات اللقاح. بعد ساعتين من وفاتها، جلست عائلتي تضحك على نكاتها، وطريقتها المُضحكة في سرد ​​القصص. ضحكنا وشعرنا بالحبّ وكأنّها تجلس معنا مرّة أخرى. هذا ما قد يجعلني أشعر بسلام – تخصيب التراب، وتخصيب الأحاديث، والتذكّر الجماعي.

--- هناك
شارعان أسلكهما
للمشي
للهرب
للّعب
للبقاء
هناك
خمس ساعات تكون أشعة الشمس
حادّة
السماء زرقاء
الأرض خضراء
هناك
زهرة أستطيع
شمّها
لمسها
عصرها
واقتلاعها
هناك
أصدقاء أستطيع
ضمّهم
طعام
أستطيع
ابتلاعه
لغة
تخرج
عبر شفتيّ
ربّما لا يزال هناك
أماكن عدّة
وأشياء
وناس
من بعدي ---

ربّما يكفيني وعد بـ»الاحتفاء بذكري مكانياً» كما لو أنني نبتة يجري الاعتناء بها حتّى تصبح شجرة. لا إسم ولا لوحات تعريفيّة – النبتة/ الشجرة فقط مع عِلمٍ مُسبق بأنّه سوف يتمّ الاعتناء بها. بالنسبة لجسدي، أريد أن أُحرَق من دون أي طقوس، وأن يُرمى رمادي في بحر العرب.

أريد أن يتمّ التعامل مع جسدي بشكل تخريبي كما لو أنّه على قيد الحياة.

لا أريد أن أدفن إلى جانب عائلتي. في هذا الدُرج الصغير إلى جانب كلّ الأشخاص الذين لم يعرفوني أبدًا. محاصرة بالموت كما كنت في الحياة. أريد أن أُحرَق، وأن يتمّ تحرير رمادي أخيراً.
أريد أن يُسمح لي بالمرور، لا الوقوف ما بين بين، لكي يكون ذلك وجوداً، عملية نشطة، تجاوز.

سأطلب منكم: 

  • إطلاق سراحي والسماح لي بالمرور
  • عدم السماح للحنين بتعكير هذه اللحظة لأنني لن أطلب سوى عودة تعابيركم إلى طبيعتها
  • لقد اقتنصت اللمحات اللطيفة، وتخلّصت من الطرق الصغيرة والكبيرة التي أحبّبتموني بها سعياً للخلود. أبقيت نفسي على قيد الحياة بهذه الطريقة
  • تحديد وقت للحزن
  • تذكّر أنّه لا يوجد فراق في جمال الحبّ؛ إنه لا نهائي ويتجدّد من دون الجسد

أريد أن يتذكّروني من خلال الحبّ الذي تركته. أريد التخلّي عن جسدي وأعضائي لتغذية الحبّ في حياة أو حياوات أخرى.

--- رائحة الياسمين ---


 

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التجسيدات العابرة للحدود

نصدر النسخة هذه من المجلة بالشراكة مع «كحل: مجلة لأبحاث الجسد والجندر»، وسنستكشف عبرها الحلول والاقتراحات وأنواع الواقع النسوية لتغيير عالمنا الحالي وكذلك أجسادنا وجنسانياتنا.

استكشف المجلة

Barbara Allimadi

Barbara Allimadi was a political and human rights activist from Uganda. In 2012, she co-organized a protest against a televised police assault of Ingrid Turinawe, an opposition politician who had her breast squeezed by a police officer.

During the protest, Barbara, along with other fellow activists stripped to their bras in front of the Central Police Station in Kampala. This came to be known as the infamous ‘bra protest’ in Uganda.

“We settled on the bra protest. We thought it would be most appropriate for what had happened. It’s not like we were saying we don’t respect ourselves. We were disgusted by what had been done.” - Barbara Allimadi, 2013 (Daily Monitor)

With a Degree in Electronics and Communications Engineering from the London Metropolitan University, Barbara was a network engineer in the United Kingdom and an avid fan of reggae music. She returned to Uganda In 2007, when her mother passed away.

In 2019, she was appointed Coordinator for International and Diaspora Affairs at the Alliance for National Transformation (ANT), a political party launched that year by an opposition leader.

“We want security of life and property, not pain, injury and even death at the hands of security forces who are meant to protect us. Most importantly, we want a stable and enabling environment where we can realize our dreams and aspirations.” - Barbara Allimadi, ANT video

Barbara passed away on 27 April 2020. 


Tributes:

“I was so proud of my sister for many things but in particular her fearless pursuit of peace, democracy, justice and equality in Uganda. At the height of her activism she led many marches on the streets of Kampala, to police stations, and Parliament.” - Doris Allimadi, Barbara’s sister

“It is with deep sadness that we have learnt of the untimely passing of Barbara Allimadi. She has been a valiant, relentless and courageous force for the liberation movement of Uganda. Our deepest condolences to her family. She will be sorely missed.” - Akina Mama wa Afrika (tweet on 28 April 2020)

“The passing on of Barbara is so sad for us and her entire family. She dedicated herself to fighting for justice, freedom and rights of others while serving in the civil society until she recently joined us at the party.” Maj Gen Mugisha Muntu, ANT national coordinator

“A beautiful, charming, funny, charismatic and inspirational sister. My children lost their aunty. Uganda lost a brave and courageous freedom fighter. Barbara once said, ‘As long as there is still breath in you, keep working towards your dreams.’” - Doris Allimadi, Barbara’s sister